Saturday, March 31, 2012


Conference. how can you go wrong with conference. Love how I feel like I'm doing good but also feel like yeah I need to work on that.

Jed - It sprinkled while we were outside this evening. Jed was adorable, he was riding his (pink) bike around in circles singing. "I'm riding in the rain, I'm riding in the rain." Wish I had a photo it was so adorable!!!!

Jeffrey - He wanted so badly to go fly his new kite today, but he had a rough day listening etc (this has been a major trend) So he helped me load the dishwasher, after he emptied it, cleared all dishes he found and placed them in the sink. He was so cute. He even took my soup bowl off the table at 8pm. after I finished eating it. Sometimes he just melts my heart

Henry - After feeding him he was staring up at me with his beautiful blue (at least now who knows what they will end up) eyes. He was smiling and cooing at me. once again he melted my heart. I love love love how it seems he knows who I am and that he is happy to see me. I am so lucky to have him.

Annmarie - she was reading me a book she got from school. She asked to read it to me during conference. I told her later. She was reading it to me while the others were watching Horton hears a Who. Love that she really enjoys reading. I needed help with Henry while I was making soup. She did a great job (as always) holding him on the couch. It is so funny to hear the kids talk to Henry. They totally copy me. It makes me laugh. I love how much my kids love to be around Henry

Will -  Today we also had an Easter egg hunt at the Y. When we got to the car after I told the kids they could have 1 piece then they needed to give me the bags. Will says I don't need any now mom, then gave me his bag. Then while watching conference he kept finding all the caramel pieces and giving them to me. They tasted terrible, but Will knew I loved them and wanted me to have them. Once again, I am so lucky to have such great kids.

just to not leave him out. Chris is at Priesthood session. He always comes home and says I'm sorry and I love you. This is because they always get some type of chastisement and then he comes home and resolves to do better. I love how sweet he is. I don't think he needs to apologies, but I love it anyway because he cuddles great then too :)

Friday, March 30, 2012


Annmarie got to go to a birthday party at pump it up. She has been excited for days! She was so happy and had so much fun. The boys watched a Harry potter with Chris. they also were overly happy.

Thursday, March 29, 2012


I cannot say how lucky I am that I got to marry this man. He has been dealing with lots of stress lately , but has still be a wonderful father, husband and student. I'm not sure how he does it all. I am so thankful for him and all he does. What a great man.

I also loved watching Jeffrey and Jed start their swimming lessons. Hopefully they will learn something :)

Wednesday, March 28, 2012


 I'm not sure if you know this but Henry is the best baby ever. He has been sleeping through the night for about a solid 2 weeks now. He is so tiny, because I think Heavenly Father is being kind to me with the realization that he is most likely our last. He snuggles so awesome right into my neck. He smiles so awesome, and has adorable dimples. Today when he got shots he cried of course but when I picked him up he immediately stop and he snuggled right into me. It melted my heart. I am so lucky to have him. He is truly a wonderful gift from Heavenly Father. He is just what I need in my life right now. 

 How could you not love a baby/child like this.

Monday, March 26, 2012


While talking about missionaries during Family Home evening, Annmarie asked if she could bare her testimony. She and Will both did it. I love to hear what they say.

Sunday, March 25, 2012

D&C 58:26-28

these verses really spoke to my heart today. Love how scriptures speak to you at different times in your life. This was so necessary for me. Thank you Heavenly Father for my calling to study the scriptures, which causes me to use cross references and learn more

Saturday, March 24, 2012


We watched the muppets tonight. Loved it. As I was saying family prayers it made me cry. Why? Because I am so thankful that I have my family. I am so thankful for forever families. What a wonderful blessing to Know that if we live the best we can we will be together for ever. Love this.

Thursday, March 22, 2012


this is 2 fold today.
First off Chris is finished with his school work for the week (spring break) and we get to have him for 3 whole days!!! I am so excited for this

Heat class today was especially hard. Chris was there with me and I was very slow in what I did but I finished. I think I might have lost count 2 or so times. so to make up I will do 3 more squat thrusts and 3 more roll ups later :) it was a rough workout but it fells so good!

Wednesday, March 21, 2012


Jeffrey turned 5 today. What a great joy he has been in my life. Meant to post this on the other blog so I will do both. Love him!

Jeffrey is such a Happy kid, except when he decides to not be :). I cannot believe it has been 5 years. One of Chris's favorite stories of him is when we went to Seattle to visit the Allen's. Kris my sister kicked us out of the house for 24 hours (without kids) when Jeffrey was about 3-4 months. It was great to get out.  Jeffrey had been a bit of a fussy, crying baby the last few weeks. When we got back it was quiet. Jeffrey had eaten an entire big jar of Apple sauce. Apparently I was not feeding him enough. Since that day he has been our eater. When he is full he is a very happy boy.
I love to see Jeffrey with babies. He loves them and turns into a sweet boy. He loves to sing I am a child of God to any crying baby. He loves to hold Henry. He loves to help sweep the floor, mop (with a sponge), and do dishes (or play in the water). Jeffrey is truly a sweet child. When he prays he truly prays for what is on his mind. It may range from let us play to Wii today to bless Henry to sleep so mom will not be grumpy. He gives wonderful hugs, and his smile is so wonderful! I love Jeffrey and am so happy he is in our family

Some of Jeffrey's favorites (as told to me this morning)
Food - Chicken nuggets (cold or hot) Stake, Popcorn chicken
Songs - Happy Birthday, twinkle twinkle
Games - Life, Candyland
Wii - Harry Potter, Mario Cart, Wii sports, Wii play, Wii, resorts, Lego batman
Computer - PBS, Lego, Disney
Things to do - Daddy dates the most!

Tuesday, March 20, 2012


I Have never been a clean freak and today it defiantly showed. We were at the park and by the time I noticed Jeffrey and Annmarie were playing in mud. I said I have no where to be so Jeffrey pretty much had at it. Love when they are so happy. The clean up was messy but I know he had a blast!
Plus Chris and I had our temple recommend interviews. Love hearing and answering those questions.

Monday, March 19, 2012


today was the start of spring break. I have made a list of things to be accomplished and things we get to do when these things are accomplished. Today went great. But the best part of the day really was seeing Will choose to put down the Wii and go out on a date with Chris. Plus when I came in from the Library today I saw Will Annmarie and Jed all reading the books they got from there. loved that!

Sunday, March 18, 2012


It has been a while since I posted. To be honest up until Yesterday I was having a hard time thinking of anything positive to write about. So up until yesterday if I had to come up with positives it would be that Henry is consistently sleeping from 8/9ish to 6ish. That truly is great. Since I know very few people read this and those that do are family I figure that I'm good being truthful. I am struggling for a few reasons. this semester is very difficult for Chris which in turn puts more pressure on me at home. He is not home most nights until about 6. He is much more stressed about classes than he has been in the past. Anyone who has ever had a spouse in school I think fully understands what I am going through. The other stressful thing is about the size of our family. I have always wanted a bunch of kids. After Jed I said how about 2 more. Well through out Henry's pregnancy I learned that as you have more c-sections the more issues that can arise. I found out last week that I have a 15 - 20 % chance of having my uterus rupture if I were to get pregnant again. Apparently with Henry I had a 10% chance but was never informed of it. Now I know that there are some who struggle to have 1 kid. I truly understand that I am blessed to have the wonderful, healthy and crazy children that I have now. I also always said my fear was that I would be told sorry you can not have any more children. I guess my worst fear has come true, I have to choose. The choice could lead to a completely healthy pregnancy with no complications or it could end up worse case scenario my family without a Me. In hindsight I wish that I would have been told you have a 30% or above chance of dying next time you have a baby. So as I have been staring at my beautiful baby boy and crying each time I see photos from the day he was born. I have been pondering is he really my last child? Yesterday we went to the temple and did sealings. I love to do theses and be reminded of the covenants and blessings that I made with Chris. Did we receive the answer we were searching for? not yet, but I know that He knows what is in my heart and knows what struggle I am going through now. I am so thankful that I have a supportive husband who is wanting just like me to make the right decision about our family. I know some day the answer to our question and the other struggles we are going through right now will come. Hopefully it will come sooner that later. I know this has been a rambled mess but I needed a place to write my feelings and this was it.

Tuesday, March 13, 2012

a break

It is amazing how just 1hour away from the kids does me wonders. This evening. I was stressed with the kids. Will spilled an entire cup of water on the table before dinner, after the table was set. cleaned up that mess. Then as I was in my room he was trying so hard to be helpful but as he was taking the pot off the stove full of chicken in a sauce he spilled half of it on the floor. I did well not losing it with him (which is a miracle considering I was just on my bed crying). Chris sent to out of the house and I was amazingly refreshed when I came home. So thankful I have a thoughtful husband who knows when I am done.

Monday, March 12, 2012

warm weather

Today we were outside from about 1pm to 5:30. It was wonderful. love warmer weather and the ability to be outside!

Sunday, March 11, 2012


I must say i am enjoying my new calling (gospel doctrine teacher) I am tthankful for all I a,m learning.

Saturday, March 10, 2012


today we cleaned and cleaned. Every room in the house (except mine) was cleaned. and as I sit in bed ready for sleep the front is still clean. It took all of 5 min to clean it up tonight! Hope I can keep it clean for a few days. Love the feel of living in a clean home.

disclaimer - my home is not trashed, I just struggle to get clutter off of places and to sweep in a timely manner. yes I need to do better and hopefully I will.

Friday, March 9, 2012


I read most of March's Ensign today and really enjoyed it. my favorite article was about having your children work and possibly fail at things. I decided that we need to do better about making our children work.

Thursday, March 8, 2012

hearing good things

Sometimes I have a hard time seeing positives in my children. especially at the end of the day. Well today Will and Annmarie had their parent teacher conferences. Both their teachers were so positive and complementary. Annmarie's teacher said she was polite and respectful. I almost fell out of the chair. I am so glad my kids do well at school and for others. I wish they would be a little better at home but. . . I would rather they were polite and respectful for others. We must have done something right, right/

Wednesday, March 7, 2012


This afternoon my friends Terrylyn Hill and Kristol Andelon came by with there kids and visited for 3 hours plus. It was so wonderful to chat with them. Even though we live about 15 min away we don't see each other as often as we would like. So nice that we can still "hang" out.

Tuesday, March 6, 2012

a dream

I got to call my boys in from playing outside with neighbors. I never thought I would have this chance. But our neighborhood has tons of kids and they play outside when it is warm. I love love this place. It reminded me of when I was growing up.

Monday, March 5, 2012


Today I got the clear to go back and exercise. So happy yet such a disappointment. In class I realized how much I have lost and how far I have to go. But hey I get to exercise again right :)

Sunday, March 4, 2012


Today Chris gave Henry a Name and a blessing at church. I was struck while he was giving the blessing what a wonderful blessing that I have by having a worthy priesthood holder in my home. I think I have always taken this for granted, because I always have. So thankful for him and his willingness to strive for that goal of being worthy.

Saturday, March 3, 2012


While making my bed tonight with Chris we started to tease each other and pull the sheets away from the other. love how we have fun doing these small things with each other.

Friday, March 2, 2012

A Date

So nice to get out and go on a date with Chris. Love him!

Thursday, March 1, 2012


last night Henry was a bit fussy and so what did Will do. He started singing I am a Child of God to him. He calmed down and the other kids joined in. I loved it!

I just got back from a relief society birthday dinner. I love going and getting to know sisters better. I wish we had more opportunities to just talk, and make friendships